Victory In Vulnerability 

I stumbled upon love one day, but it didn’t look like love.  It was filled with lust, passion, desire & bliss.  He saw his window of opportunity and he took advantage of it.

We were inseparable with our words, and our words turned into several face-2-face rendezvous.  These international secret escapes created a bond that some may describe as a soul-tie.  Nothing I did could shake him off of me. I was asking him questions and I was very demanding to make him identify and label “us”.  My love | His love | very different from above. I began to settle into “his” love for me. I decided to just luv him anyway.


I was hit with these fears of emptiness that lead me to a path of insecurities that had my head swimming in darkness.

Part I ~AnXiety, Jealousy, Inhibitions, & Self-doubt about what I should or shouldn’t be doing.  This was very consuming.

Part II ~ was just childish behaviors I had to really come to grips with.  I am too old to be acting like this.  He couldn’t comprehend my aggression I was feeding him but in the end, he was patient with me. I had to pray through this.


No matter how many times we fought and argued, I tried to sabotage the friendship with my perceptions of lies, deceit and betrayal.  I didn’t like that dark place of fear, emptiness and insecurity.  I had to decide a better path for me to take. I had to let go of what was my perceptions of…things I couldn’t control.

Yet, he stayed with me daily. ❤️

I acknowledged every fear I had and I dealt with it.  I prayed through it.  I acknowledged it, I communicated them and I moved on. I know & he knows that my love is sacred and he won’t ever forget that. I stood firm in restoration, recovering from darkness and insecurity. I am very grateful that my Lord was there with me and never left my side.

#standfirminrestoration 🙏🏼🌹

Some people may not be fully aware of the power they have within to be able to deal with their own insecurities and to be able to move past the trials in their lives. If you’re faced with any fears, face it and regardless of the outcome, do it without regret, because if someone did something that made you feel fear or insecure, it is worth acknowledging because not only does it change you, but it may change someone else.  Make certain that your intent to change should be rooted in love, not hate.  To make it better for yourself.

Although his love is not perfect, I realized that neither was mine.  I had to believe that there was a victory in being so vulnerable after I had gone through a major lost; but I made a conscious effort on being confident and decided to love again.  He, well he has more work to do, but I knew one day he would come for me and it will be true that he was the one.  I discovered that the perfect gift he had to give to me was his heart.❤️


From a major lost to love again, I Rise from the ashes of grief and the Lord helped me transform my life to Dream bigger, Live Longer and to Love Others.

Thank you for your support!

U know who u r! ❤️🌹


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You may run across one…if not, travel. 

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You can encounter many people in your lifetime, but rarely do you run across someone that you really enjoy being in their presence.

You will go through hail & high water just to be by their side and it makes you want to be adventurous sometimes. You know who they are in your life.

If not, travel.

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Raquel ©

An International Agreement 

I need US to be on one accord, just like the day we met in the DR.

When we both were mesmerized by each other’s unique personalities and neither of US could not clearly see why you were in pursuit of me.

When the language we spoke to each other was politically different, and neither of US could fully understand, but we both knew we wanted the same thing.

Just like we both know now, today, that we need each other, but neither of US have a plan on how to make this work without a higher power.

One accord with HIS will and not our own because we are powerless in the name of love.

A text, a kiss, a twist of fate may be keeping US together.

Let’s just be on one accord; an international agreement.

That’s 2 deep for him🏊

His/Her Needs

I know his needs. I am a woman who loves her husband.
He needs:
1. To be respected at all times.
2. To be treated as if he is number one.
3. Attention, hugs, and mind stimulation.
4. To make love to his wife regularly.
5. A good home-cooked meal and
6. His bath water ran after work on a rainy day.
7. His feet and his back rubbed.
8. To hear from me daily.
9. To know I appreciate him.
10. For me to communicate with him in more ways than one.
11. To pray for him on more days than one.
12. To be forgiving.
13. To be authoritative.
14. To be financially responsible.
15. To be a great mother to our children.
16. To take care of him if he gets sick or unemployed.
17. To love him, unconditionally.

Do I do all these things? Ask him…

I know her needs. I am a man who loves his wife.
She needs:
1.  Honesty and trust.
2. Financial relief.
3. To be spiritually fed.
4. To know we share the same vision with our family goals.
5. To support her in everything she does.
6. My strength and to know I will protect her.
7. A strong male figure who is also a good father figure.
8. Hugs, kisses, humor and material surprises.
9. Most of all, she need me to be faithful.

Do I do all these things? Ask her.


In November 2015, I started a series of quotes called the #Justluvseries. I started this series because after losing my husband, I became vulnerable. I didn’t realize it was vulnerability back then, but I had placed some boundaries and rules to protect my heart. Was I looking to love again? Yes.

I wanted an escape to fulfill a fantasy where tasteful wishes come true. I wanted him to ask for anything he wanted. I was seeking pleasures of a true climax, but I didn’t want to question why.

I became compassionate, sympathetic and started to love others to motivate them. I begin to give without expecting anything in return because some of my high expectations caused unnecessary anxiety when things didn’t go my way or when I felt like I wasn’t getting what I wanted in return. Then I realized that two people may never love each other the same way and that my love cannot be measured. You know, love can be uncertain; but I took the risk yet trying to protect my heart.

So I started to be more transparent because people will judge you anyway. I wanted to let go of who I thought I was supposed to be and embrace who I really was. I had inhibitions with desires and fantasies that had me pondering on where I should be in relationships and looking for certainty, then I started to just believe in love.

I started to inspire others to dream bigger than their current situations. The true art of giving creates a peace within. I began to trust the Lord in every situation and I understood that my love was sacred. I wanted to fall in love with someone who fell in love with me. I love this quote by Brene’ Brown, “You can’t get to courage without waking through vulnerability. Period.”

And with that said, although I was vulnerable, I decided I wasn’t going to let my love be influenced by misconceptions. Within me, I had the power to love and I did just that.

Choose today…

I have encountered new people in my life and by allowing that to happen, I had to discover more about their personalities, intentions and motives, in addition I had to discover mine also.

During this discovery process, I’ve seen selfish behaviors, poor quality in building relationships, insecurities, and transgressions which were sometimes viewed as malicious or intentional to sabotage relationships.

But today, I choose to forgive and to ask for forgiveness from the people I cherish in my circle.

Choose today and allow Love to conquer all.