~I travel just to see another side of myself. Who can I be outside of my country?
I have traveled to domestic destinations on someone else’s dime. Even my first time traveling internationally to the Dominican Republic, was not on my dime.
But when I got a taste of the beauty and that bliss, I could not hardly contain myself. Like what have I been missing? Attention like this? I just could not resist.
I evolved into another person it seemed. Dreaming of fantasies I had once dreamed. Connecting with someone who fell in love with me. Not knowing the consequences of giving him all of me.
Places I would not go, I went.
Things I would not do, I did.
People I would not see, I saw.
A love I would not normally love, Yes, I loved.
I travel just the way I want to. My rules, my money, my time. Just the way I want it.
And I damn sure ain’t nobody’s property.
#shesgottatravel 😝 #thepoetryjournal
In the beginning, it was a discovery process; to learn about his culture and how he treats foreign women. I was one of them. I couldn’t understand his aggressive attention he had for me.
I released my expectations and stood on the other side of my guarded walls. We only wanted to enjoy each other’s company. What I wanted with him wasn’t realistic at all. Who can you trust in another country? But I wanted him.
He was the reason I exhaled 💋
My paradise when I was overwhelmed
My hope for another escape 🏖
My fire 🔥
My alone time.
He was my space ❤️
Watching, observing and talking to him daily, I became attached to his behaviors. Being so attached to him had me wanting one more escapade with him. Torn between tied down without an escape from him; and wanting that fairytale of a wedding with him, but knowing darn well I could be miserable with him. It’s such a big risk.
What am I willing to do to risk it all? Ignore the signs, and embrace for the downfall? Not at all. When I try to end it, now he wants to make the call. “Compra los dos anillos y manda arreglar los papeles de la boda. Y nos casamos. “ (Buy the rings, arrange the wedding papers and we can get married.”)
Uh… No. I don’t want to buy the rings, all I want is you.
My desire for him may just be my downfall.
Fine wine takes time and that goes for good intimacy in relationships.
Take your time to build on your heart’s desires. Forget about it should be and enjoy intimacy for exactly what it is.
#intimacy #takestime #desire #fantasy #thepoetryjournal