Officially ūüíĒ

I watched him carefully.  His words spoke eloquently enough to keep me around, but after my last visit with him, he was distracted.  Something had his attention.  

We didn’t get anything accomplished; yet I searched for the right information.  

 I knew I should’ve left him a long time ago, but I held on to the love I fantasized about everyday.  

I knew that when I played this card; there was no turning back…

  

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Wanderlust

She had a strong desire to travel and she could’ve gone anywhere in the world, but she didn’t.  She wanted his world.  Every three months, she manipulated her way back into his arms and when it was time to leave him, she thought she would never see him again.  She thought the fix was the last one.  She thought the wanderer in her would be done with lust…

 

Is there a victory in being vulnerable?

Going thru grief of one loss made her vulnerable; yet she was trying to maintain that good girl image, but a few minutes of pleasure had her confused and conflicted and where is she now?

Meeting him for the very first time, was very intriguing to her.  The physical attraction was immediate, but she was subtle to acknowledge how fine he was because she was in the presence of someone else and did not want to be disrespectful.  It wasn‚Äôt until his touch and his kiss that lured her into the curiosity of a fantasy.  She had that burning desire to know more about him.  This journey took her through a #Path of Insecurities.  Where is the victory in vulnerability?  She was determined to find it.

 

That Moment…

Yes, that moment when you can be yourself and nothing else matters; only that moment. ¬†Just like everyone else, I doubted his love for me because he didn’t say it as many times as I would. ¬†He said, “I was taught not to love with words, but with my soul. ¬†Believe it or not, I love you very much.”

Cuddle timeTe quiero mucho

It Can Happen To You

I noticed him, but I did not think he would be strong enough to sweep me off my feet. One touch, one kiss, it was total bliss. His words, his song, his big strong arms caressed me into his soul.

I tried to resist him by turning away but he waited patiently for me to stay. But why my love? porque Dios raquel. ¬Ņpor qu√© lo crees?

My Insecurities of fear and jealousy surfaced and gave me doubt that this could be. I fought inside to hide the love I felt deep within my heart. It taught me to deal with that fear and jealousy & to be patient, instead of controlling everything.

He is still Amazing to me.

He is patient & calm, confident, loyal, God-fearing, fun, loving,EMAV & passionate. He is Love.

And when I finally decided to stop fighting with him, I know now he swept me off my feet and carried me through the storm. ~

RaHelm Creations 2015

 

I wanted to just believe.

Encountering the chemistry of two cultures has made waves into our hearts for each other. Acknowledging that we are different, yet vowing to never let go.

Questioning the relationship can lead to Underestimating the love that is present. We expect the best and we found ourselves loving each other all over again! ~

Inhibitions

The Power To Love

You embark upon someone and the chemistry just clicks. ¬†You may give in¬†to lustful desires that you wouldn’t dare do with just any ordinary person you meet. ¬†And suddenly, you find yourself in situations to control things to the way they “should” be only to find out you don’t have any control at all. ¬†The only power you have left is to just love them anyway.

Power to love -2016

Manipulating

His touch takes me to a place emotionally that reaches deep inside my heart.¬†‚̧¬†His words he write every morning to me is the calm before the storm. Distance separates lust from love & creates doubt within him and me. I tug, he pulls, I walk, he rules and this goes on endlessly.¬† It’s manipulating ~ skillfully controlling the emotions to satisfy the desires of the heart.¬† Be mindful, this wears off after awhile.

Manipulating - 2016

 

Letting go of what was..

Identifying the events and emotions that took place. The highs, the lows, the mystery that unfolds and shifted us to another level. I drove him insane with my insecurities and became demanding of more of his attention. But when I didn’t get what I wanted from him, I acted out like a teenage child, making accusations and communicating to walk away from the insanity. He kept insisting to stay and would talk as if nothing major had happened. I can’t believe he would put up with me and my childish behavior. There is a reason for US, and I have to trust it is working for our good.¬†I decided to let go¬†of what was my perceptions of Lies, Deceit, & Betrayal.

Perceptions of -2016