His touch takes me to a place emotionally that reaches deep inside my heart.  His words he write every morning to me is the calm before the storm. Distance separates lust from love & creates doubt within him and me. I tug, he pulls, I walk, he rules and this goes on endlessly.  It’s manipulating ~ skillfully controlling the emotions to satisfy the desires of the heart.  Be mindful, this wears off after awhile.

Manipulating - 2016



Letting go of what was..

Identifying the events and emotions that took place. The highs, the lows, the mystery that unfolds and shifted us to another level. I drove him insane with my insecurities and became demanding of more of his attention. But when I didn’t get what I wanted from him, I acted out like a teenage child, making accusations and communicating to walk away from the insanity. He kept insisting to stay and would talk as if nothing major had happened. I can’t believe he would put up with me and my childish behavior. There is a reason for US, and I have to trust it is working for our good. I decided to let go of what was my perceptions of Lies, Deceit, & Betrayal.

Perceptions of -2016

Just doing it all wrong…Have I grown? Yes.

Believe it or not, I still can’t fully let go. Jumped in too fast, and tried to walk away, expressed all my love and expected him to do the same. This friendship is something I’ve never experienced before. Am I willing to go through revolving doors? What will it cost for a luv overseas; whose souls once touched and requires each other to breathe? It’s hard to believe this could be true, I’d rather accept the fantasy of being with you.

No care

Attract the Truth

“I attract truth and no negativity will penetrate my realm.  My being is whole and I feel not. Those who are in my realm are meant to be there even if its for a short time.” – Raquel Helm

Truth - 2016

My Passion Right Now?

Creative Writing.  What is the opposite of writer’s block? I don’t know the term, but I have it. I cannot stop writing. Any thought, word, deed or whatever I’m feeling, I’ll write about it. Have you tried it lately?


Think about this word for a minute. SACRIFICE: To forfeit something highly valued for the sake of one considered to have a greater value.

What have you sacrificed lately in your relationships? For me, it was shopping in order to meet the needs of my sons and staying with my sons so my husband can continue his journey to recovery. For my love, there are no regrets. What we have, I am fighting until the end.