Rude Awakening 

I can’t walk in your shoes, but I can listen to you.  I’m a dreamer, feeler, thinker, controller & entertainer but not necessarily in that order.  

I bounce and change daily.  I can be moody and I don’t think things all the way through.  I used to analyze certain things, but I’ve changed since he left me.

I don’t pay attention to details anymore, I only look close enough to see the dream.  I take each day one step at a time and whatever I don’t finish, I leave it for another day.  

My vulnerability stays with me daily and reminds me to have courage to be me.  I can be very self-centered, but definitely not vain.  Just self-taught to put myself first because no one will take care of me.  

Loyalty?  What does that look like?  After being hurt or saddened by so many of my loved ones or close ones, perhaps I was blind to the fact that someone could genuinely care about me.

Thanks for sharing and next time I dream, maybe I can include you and not just me. 

Rude Awakening ~💤💤


My Children 🙏🏼❤️🌹

“Wanting Greatness for your Children” 

Be fruitful and multiply to bring forth children into this thing called life. This is a great conversation piece with your significant other, prior to marriage, to identify important goals for wanting what is best for your unborn child. In my opinion, it is one of the most important decisions for the institution of marriage.

Being a parent is described as one of the greatest challenges in our lifetime, yet it can be very rewarding. Couples get excited about love, intimacy and living happily ever after, and then miraculously a child is born into this world. Children, at all ages require a great deal of attention to prepare them for what’s ahead in life. Parents must be very mindful of how we treat them, how we talk to them, how we react when they disappoint us and how we discipline them. Children require many things but discipline, dedication, commitment and love can help them get through the learning process of improving their education and building healthy relationships. Even having all of these qualities as a parent, the job can become overwhelming time and time again.  

Parents bear a huge responsibility for their child’s health, education, social life, and a spiritual foundation; however the greatest liability is feeling responsible for their failures. You may ask yourself, what am I doing wrong? What can I do to help them? Why didn’t they ask for my help? But what happens when your children fail? How does the parent and the child react to failure? If and when they fail, it can be discouraging to both the parent and the child. Both can learn and grow from these failures because it allows the child to see their mistakes and to think about ways to correct them. Take the failure and turn it into an opportunity for growth. Reinforce to the child that it is also their responsibility to take ownership of their life for their future success.  

Are you willing to make the sacrifices for your child to give them the attention they need to succeed? Will you be there when they fail and what strategies do you have for failure? There is an enormous amount of pressure wanting to see your child succeed. Think about it and move forward with their future in mind.  

The proposal I never got…

I knew when I saw him he was what I wanted. And I said it when I saw him, “that’s gonna be my husband one day.”

Perhaps I didn’t know I was sealing my fate by speaking those words. I was only 17 years old, a senior in high school, just excited to see such a handsome face.

Little did I know I had to wait 14 years for that day, but it didn’t come with a proposal, or a ring, just our vows written on paper.  We had two witnesses, his friend & mine & and a minister under the gazebo on a misty, rainy day.

Ironically, I waited 14 years to marry him and our marriage lasted 14 years, until he departed me through death.

Goodbye my love, my one true love.  I hope you are in eternal peace.

But I reminisce to say that I may never get to experience the marriage proposal but it’s ok, I guess.  I loved him anyway.


My future is bright with you in it

Greetings, I received an phone call from an unknown number when I arrived at work today.  At first, I could not recognize the voice, but after a few seconds I realized it was a good friend of mine.  I sat down at my desk and we began to discuss his business plans for the week and then we moved on to his relationship matters.  After a lengthy conversation, he said, ” I didn’t say she was not the one; I’m just not sure if she is the right one.”  I replied, “Isn’t that like 50/50?  He then proceeded to say, “If you would just marry me, we wouldn’t be having this conversation.”

I was listening to him, but I also had other people behind me having a conversation.  I became distracted by the dichotic listening in my space.  As I began to come back to the conversation, my brain was processing his last statement.  I was asking myself, did he say that to her or was it her speaking to him?  No, wait!  I replied, were you directing that statement at me?  I totally burst into laughter, because I realized how easily I am distracted by other sounds around me.  Like, it just literally went over my head when I heard him say that.  My response to him was, “Well if that was a proposal, then yes!  I DO!”  (ROFLOL)  Sunday, July 24, 2016 in Costa Rica!  We both laughed.

That little bit of laughter made my day; stay in the moment!  Focus!

Future is bright

This just happened 

I received this today and I accept this in my realm.

“Always remember, no matter how bad somethings are, they could always be worst and no matter how good things are there is always room for things to get better. Better is always around the corner. You are one of the best because there are so many great things about you that if you get caught up on focusing on one thing, you might miss whats most important. ~You.”~ Anonymous


Think about this word for a minute. SACRIFICE: To forfeit something highly valued for the sake of one considered to have a greater value.

What have you sacrificed lately in your relationships? For me, it was shopping in order to meet the needs of my sons and staying with my sons so my husband can continue his journey to recovery. For my love, there are no regrets. What we have, I am fighting until the end.