Since then…

“I am excited to start this journey to see where it takes me.”

In November 2015, I started a series of quotes called the #Justluvseries, then I went down a #pathofinsecurities, from there I decided to #standfirminrestoration and find the #victoryinvulnerability.  I started this series after I lost my husband to a sudden death.  I was in shock and I was sad. At times I was angry, experiencing depression and loneliness.   I became very vulnerable.  I didn’t realize it was vulnerability back then, but I knew to place some boundaries and rules in my life to protect my heart.  Was I looking to love again?  Yes.

I wanted an escape to fulfill a fantasy where tasteful wishes come true.  I wanted to ask for anything I wanted.  I was seeking pleasures of a true climax, but I didn’t want to question why.

I became compassionate, sympathetic and started to love others to motivate them.  I began to give without expecting anything in return, because some of my high expectations caused unnecessary anxiety when things didn’t go my way or when I felt like I wasn’t getting what I wanted in return.  Then I realized that two people may never love each other the same way and that my love cannot be measured.  You know, love can be uncertain; but I took the risk, yet trying to protect my heart.

With acceptance and hope, I started to become more transparent because people will judge you anyway.  I wanted to let go of who I thought I was supposed to be and embrace the real me.  I had inhibitions with desires and fantasies that had me pondering on where I should be in this long distance relationship and looking for certainty where it didn’t even apply.  I decided to just believe in love.

I started to inspire others to dream bigger than their current situations.  I learned that the true art of giving creates a peace within.  I began to trust the Lord in every situation and I understood that my love was sacred.  I wanted to fall in love with someone who fell in love with me.

I love this quote by Brene’ Brown, “You can’t get to courage without walking through vulnerability.  Period.”

And with that said, although I was vulnerable, I decided I wasn’t going to let my love be influenced by misconceptions.  Within me, I had the power to love and I did just that.

Since then…I have 88 quotes, 133 posts on my blog, 759 visitors to the blog, over 2,000 views, and the best views ever was on the day I officially launched by blog on March 29, 2016.  I was just working through the process of grief, love and vulnerability and didn’t know I would have come this far.  It all started with a dream, a thought and the will to put my life back together.

Thank you for following me on this journey.  I appreciate your support.

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Punta Cana 2015

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